I have found myself back into that state of “fighting” my weight and what I am going to eat or not eat. I get so aggravated with myself and hate having a “battle” with myself. It’s hard to remember that kindness and compassion that we would offer to others, must also be given to ourselves.
Once again – I need to drop back and punt, so to speak, as I take the time to look at what is really “underneath” this fight that has taken over my body and thought process.
My life went back “out of balance” which is a common occurrence when I don’t remain “mindful” of specific choices to make sure I engage in the things that really matter in one’s life each day:
- Take time with God to talk to him and “listen” to His still small voice to guild me through my day and pay attention to stay “tuned in” to the Holy Spirit for what I need to deal with today
- Take my Juice Plus and plan my healthy things to eat today to have with me instead of reaching for junky food
- Do my Chi-gong that doesn’t take much time at all
- Look at what I need to address that “really” matters in my life today / this week
- Move – physically put my body in motion to do “something” even if it was only 5 minutes of stretching – go outside for 15 minutes and take a walk and breath deeply
- Get something that matters accomplished – even if it’s as simple as doing the dishes and not letting them pile up
I realized that this time I have ploughed through an incredible year that was filled with loss. I didn’t have time to grieve the first person that passed when I found myself deep inside another person in a situation that needed my help. One after another, things presented themselves and I just kept on coming.
This leads me to the place that I have to make a conscious effort to begin, one at a time to “deal” with the loss of each individual and things in my life that were now changed forever, leaving me with holes that needed to be filled.
This first step is to recognize what is going on and now the second is to make a plan with thirdly putting it into place and begin executing what I need to do one simple step at a time. As I “redirect” myself back onto a path of regaining my mental and emotional healing, that felt as if I had been stabbed and shredded, I know it will not be easy, but definitely worth it as I begin my way back to healing the wounds left from my loses.
It always seems to start with the serenity prayer. First, I have to work through my grief to deal with the things I cannot change. The losses from the dear individuals in my life I loved so much and miss so deeply. I know I will see all of them again, however, that doesn’t make us hurt any less in the natural from our loss in this world.
Secondly, change what I can by taking the steps I listed above to get my life back in “balance” or some close to it.
Thirdly, remember to rely on God to direct me and give me the wisdom to know what I can and cannot do anything about so I can move forward to deal with both.
My you find comfort, peace and strength as you deal with the challenges in your life.
I Can Do This Lifestyle 